Was I wrong or was she?

I have had MANY arguments with many people. I don't know why some of them even started in the first place. I have learned from almost all of them, mainly the ones that were really bad. The worst argument that I have ever had is one with my "best friend" that I have had for a long time. I don't even know where to begin with that one.

There was some miscommunication when this fight started. A lot of the time I was seen as if I was "lower" than her, meaning that she thought she was better than me. She made comments that were rude and sort of tried to bring me down. I got tired of it so I did it back, which probably wasn't a very good way to handle the situation. This when on for a while until she finally called me one day and just started saying some very hurtful things, which kind of made me think if I really wanted to be friends with her (which I still am). We talked it out and now we are all good.

After having that argument, I can see that maybe you shouldn't fight fire with fire because it only makes it worse. If you want handle the situation than you should try to communicate and say how you feel or just stop being friends. The reason we didn't stop being friends is because we both knew that we did something wrong and we have been friends for like ever, so we couldn't just throw that away because of some fight. All in all, you will fight with someone you love but it will only make your relationship stronger, if you can overcome it. 

"Become IT?"

In life, there are things that I feel confident about and other things that make me want to run away and hide. I don't have that much confidence, at ALL. I feel comfortable dancing, but not fully confident about it. Sometimes I just stop what I'm doing and dance, but then I think about how I might not be such a good dancer. I am confident about softball and writing because I have been doing it for such a long time. It's who I am.

 However, I am definitely not confident when it comes to speaking in front of a class, I get really red and stutter sometimes from being so nervous. I don't think I'm that smart so I don't participate as much. I think I need to think about all the things I'm good at and how I am a bright person in order to be more confident. In order to "Fake it until I become it," I need to walk around with confidence. I need to act like I know something even if I don't until I understand it and become it. 

Good deeds

Over winter break, there was a million things that I did or could have done as a good deed. I did a couple and it was great. I shoveled snow, babysat my little cousin (even though he is a pain in the butt), and helped around the house. It was a nice change from what I usually do, which is just being lazy and watching Netflix, etc. By doing that, I got a good feeling, like I accomplished something.

Those were just little things though, that I did. I could have volunteered somewhere or just be kind to whoever I saw, etc. I don't think a good deed is just about helping people, but also doing something good for yourself. Sometimes we do things that affects other and so by not doing things, it sort of helps others. There is more to a good deed.